You’re Going To Miss Me When I’m Gone

By Lauren Schwab

My mind is always searching for the next experience I can have, the next memory to be made. I crave what I haven’t seen that others have or no one has. With money and a GPS, I have the ability to go anywhere my heart desires. I am obligated to my farm, my family and the animals need me. However, I always wondered what it would be like to just travel and call wherever I may be home. I have a feeling, after a while I would get homesick for my cats and I am blessed with people who love me. Yet I still wonder sometimes, who would miss me when I’m gone?

I am not afraid to travel alone. As I become older, it is harder to keep up with friends and plan time together. I also worry about people having a good time or not wanting to do the same activities or spend as much money. So I often take off in my car alone. I like meeting new people and seeing new places. Half the fun is the unknown. There are experiences that are better shared with someone. To me, that’s what love is for. To share life with someone, always knowing it would be better with them. I can relate to this song:

I’ve got my ticket for the long way ’round
Two bottle whiskey for the way
And I sure would like some sweet company
And I’m leaving tomorrow. What’d you say?

When I’m gone, when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me by my hair
You’re gonna miss me everywhere, oh
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

When I’m gone, when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me by my walk
You’re gonna miss me by my talk, oh
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

I’ve got my ticket for the long way ’round
The one with the prettiest of views
It’s got mountains, it’s got rivers
It’s got sights to give you shivers
But it sure would be prettier with you

When I’m gone, when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me by my walk
You’re gonna miss me by my talk, oh
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

When I’m gone, when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me by my hair
You’re gonna miss me everywhere, oh
You’re sure gonna miss me when I’m gone

When I’m gone, when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me by my walk
You’re gonna miss me by my talk, oh
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

Lost in a Pardi Music Video

By Lauren Schwab

I don’t think everyone feels the same connection to music. It can mean something different to you than it does to me. There are many ways to experience a song. A good artist makes the experience for you. They can control the sound, the lighting, their mood on stage. The only thing they can’t control is your imagination, or can they?

img_2739When I hear a song before I watch the music video the artist has made for it, I create my own music video in my mind. When I first heard “Dirt On My Boots” by Jon Pardi, I imagined myself working hard all day on the farm. Covered in dirt, dust and pig poop. Despite having a rough day, I rush into the house and get cleaned up then glammed up real quick so I can hit the town. I imagine dancing the night away in a honky tonk, having worked hard and ready to play hard.

maxresdefaultWhen I watched Jon Pardi’s music video to the song, I found myself lost in trying to figure out the story. I expected him to show a guy working hard in the field, picking up a hot girl in his pickup truck and whisking her away to a honky tonk for some “dirty dancing and blue collar romancing.” Instead he showed himself getting cleaned up ready to sing to a rowdy crowd interchanging with a beautiful girl riding on her horse. Pardi-JonI felt lost in the video trying to figure out the connection with the girl. It didn’t make sense to me until the end of the video when she got cleaned up and glammed up then made her way into the same scene as Jon. She walked away with him when he finished the song. It was a good twist to the story and now I will probably imagine this scene when I hear the song.

IMG_0835An artist should take their music videos seriously. They are powerful in storytelling and creating the scenes that play in a person’s imagination when they hear the song. There have been times, I like a song more after seeing the music video and times I don’t. Your imagination is a wonderful thing. It can take you away and show you a preview of life’s coming attractions if you choose to believe in it. Music can be an escape and while life isn’t always as glamours as a music video, you can find happiness being lost in your imagination and then experiencing the artist perform in real life.

Can You Hold On For One More Day?

By Lauren Schwab

Life is full of choices. When we are young, choices are often made for us. We can accept them and as we grow older decide this was our lot in life. On the other hand we can decide we are meant for more. The U.S. is known to be the land of the free, where you can be anything you want to be. Many times we view thing as limitations from following our true desires. Time, money, age, geographical location, family and friends. When it comes down to it, these can only be excuses for so long. I believe we all have the power to create the life we want. Depending on what you want to do and you current circumstances, it may take a long time to get where you want to be.

Besides our own fears being in the way, we often have to deal with other people. Others will not fully understand you own dreams. They may question you, think it’s not possible and not understand why you don’t just want to have an easy and normal life. Most likely, anything worth doing in your life will not come easy. I have seen my dad work hard to build his dream of farming from the ground up. He often says he shouldn’t have made it. With faith and perseverance, it is possible. There will be mistakes made and lessons learned when you start to make change happen in your life. Most people regret the things they didn’t do when they had the chance rather than the things they do.

I challenge you to imagine what you would want your life to be if you had no limitations. Would you move? Travel? Change careers or start a business? Go after love with no fear? What would you do? Usually what captivates your mind the most is an indicator of what you should go after. Also, think about what you enjoyed when you were younger. I remember as a kid I wanted to be a country music singer. Later I realized I don’t have the voice for singing, but I developed a love for journalism and interviewing country music singers on their own dreams and music.

While it can be easy and comfortable to stay in a situation, you have to live your own dreams. No one else is living your life. You have to trust that everything happens for a reason and even if you feel like you’ve wasted time and aren’t where you should be, trust in the process. What can feel like a setback, could be you setup. We often have to go through trials before we can live a life of treasure.

Music Heals the Soul When There is Doubt

By Lauren Schwab

Farming is hard work and it can come with doubt when times get hard. Farming is a lifestyle. It can be difficult to understand why someone would want to go with no days off work, an empty bank account and daily break downs. I will always admire the farmer and their dream to produce food and fiber for the world. I can with out a doubt tell you I know what hard work is. I have pushed on through more than what I think I am capable of. With cuts and bruises, callused hands and tired eyes. I do it because I know my family and animals depend on me.

I will be honest, farming is both physically and mentally exhausting. The days can seem long and when things go wrong it can be hard to keep the faith. When I find myself in a negative state, I refuse to let my spirit be crushed. So I put my head phones in and my mind can instantly be taken to another place. I find myself, pushing on, dancing in the barns and day dreaming about fun things that could happen in the future. I love to imagine great things happening and know I can become a stronger woman.

I have discovered with social media, it can be hard not to envy what others are doing or may have. I find myself thinking about others having fun while I’m working or wondering why we have it so much harder. All I know is that I am a farm girl right now for a reason. I don’t know what the future holds, but I have the power to create the life of my dreams and I will not let hard times break me. I can be peace, love and light in the midst of darkness.

Here are some melodies by Monroeville that help me push through:

Country Singer Chase Bryant Could Use a Little Bit of Friends in the FFA

By Lauren Schwab

Chase Bryant performed at the National FFA Convention & Expo on October 19 at the Dodge booth. As a Texas country music singer and former FFA member, Bryant took the time to perform his hit singles, “Little Bit of You”, “Room to Breathe” and “Take It On Back” while telling members about his FFA experience including competing in the creed-speaking contest.

chasebryant01-1423175014“I grew up in a small town in Orange Grove, Texas in a farming family. In my small town a lot of people said things wouldn’t happen for me. When I joined FFA it became a family very quickly. My brother was a state officer in Texas. Watching him, seeing how everyone treated him and the way everyone came together was pretty inspiring. There’s very few things when your living out your teenage years that instill things in you that you feel are going to live with you the rest of your life.”

img_2908“Growing up, I thought FFA was strictly for the farmers. I learned very quickly that it wasn’t just about the farmer. It’s about instilling good things in kids. The people in FFA became some of my best friends and have stuck around with the longest. There’s a guy who works with the Texas FFA that taught me a lot of things and became one of my best friends. I learned a lot of lessons and learned people in the FFA stick together and is something that will follow you the rest of your life. I want you (FFA members) to be proud of what you’re doing and to be part of this organization. I promise you and tell you it (FFA) is one of the best organizations on the planet.”

img_2910“I grew up in a family of farmers and FFA taught me those people matter. Those people are the reason we have food on the table, the reason we get to live each day. Those people are out there busting their ass for me and you to put food on the table. Go around to all these booths (in the expo) and colleges and talk to the people. You will learn things here. I never got to go to the National FFA Convention; this is my first time. You will learn things that will live with you forever and you will learn exactly why you are apart of this organization. It’s about making friends that are going to live with you the rest of your life. This is the best organization you could be apart of so be proud of what you’re doing and spread it to your friends because you are cool being apart of this. Thanks for coming out to see us and to Dodge for letting us sing on this stage, a truck bed, how much cooler can it possibly get.”

chase-bryant-2015-billboard-650“About six years ago I moved up to be a song writer and an artist. I started writing for a company owned by Roy Orbison. There was a big band in Nashville that cut ten of my songs on a record. I went into write one day and I thought I’m just going to stay home and not write a song today. I was two months from living in my car. I bought way too much because I thought I was going to become and instant millionaire. That did not happen, all those songs got cut. But this one-day a buddy threw an idea out to me, so I grabbed a cup of coffee and walked out on the loading dock and started thinking about things. In about five to ten minutes I had written this chorus, ‘Take it on back, take it on back, take it on back to where the grass is greener.’”

To follow Chase Bryant’s music visit

To Learn more about the National FFA Organization visit

USFRA Faces of Farming & Ranching Contest Finalist

It is an honor to be a finalist for the U.S. Farmers & Ranchers Alliance Faces of Farming and Ranching contest. Please take a moment each day October 14-23 to vote for me and share so I can have the opportunity to reach a larger audience across the country in advocating for agriculture!

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We want to “Pardi Moore” in Oklahoma

By Lauren Schwab

Music has a way of creating memories that last a lifetime. I have always been in love with how music can relate to so many moments and emotions in life. I can hear a song and instantly be taken back to a moment in time or let my mind imagine what I want to happen in the future. Most of these memories or imaginations are about love and having good times with friends. I have come to know making memories are the best gifts. I also love experiencing an artist’s music so when I listen to their songs I can imagine myself at the concert and be taken back to that moment in time. Jon Pardi’s “Missin’ You Crazy” is one of those songs for me because I have the best memory of my best friend Brittany dancing in PR’s in the Fort Worth Stockyards and now me singing it with my OSU friends.

I recently traveled to Oklahoma to visit my Ohio friends going to school at Oklahoma State University. We had a great time going to see Jon Pardi and Kip Moore in concert at the Diamond Ballroom in Oklahoma City. We danced, sang and admired the cowboys. The money was worth every penny to experience a new place with new friends. I will keep this post short, but allow yourself to use music to let your mind wonder, uplift your day and take you away to a place where memories can be made. I admire the artists living their dream and using their talents to touch the lives of people around the world.


Where I Come From and Why I Write…

Dear Friend,

LaurenI am from country farms on one-lane roads

Tractors and trailers filled with baby pigs

Front porch swings watching the pink sunset

Stars sparkling during hard work at 5AM
FFA Lauren

I am from the national blue and corn gold jackets of the FFA

Speaking my heart out in front of 500 people





Judging contests and chocolate milkshakes

Black tights with runs and trips with an advisor driving crazy

All nighters in hotel rooms and friends made across the nation



I am from county fairs in the hot July sun

Ferris wheels and pork burgers

Playing cards in my best friend’s camper

Showing pigs to win that blue ribbon





I am from rockin it out to Fall Out Boy in my room

Not caring what any one thinks

Living for the moment

Determined to be an old lady on a Harley with no regrets





I am from singing my heart out on Sunday mornings

Praise of having such a blessed life

In awe of the wonderful powers from heaven above

Always having faith so that nothing will be impossible unto me

And this is why I write…

IMG_3009I write to clam my soul,

I write to unleash my soul, my tears, and my pain.

I write to thank God of everything he’s given me and for being in my life.

I write to heal my anger,

I write to scream my emotions out,

IMG_0438I write to show my love for him.

I write to remember my life,

I write to experience my pain over and over again.

I write to realize I am strong for coming out of pain and into the light.

I write to feed my hunger,

I write to honor God and spit on Satan.

I write to never forget love lost and love earned.

I write to have faith,

I write to later speak those words,


I write to change lives,


I write to change my own life.

I write to live,

I write to die,

I write to fight against evil,

I write to embrace purity,

I write to fill my emptiness,

IMG_2848I write to embrace my aloneness.

I write to cry my black tears,

I write to wipe my black tears away.

I write to understand my meaning,

I write to wonder simply why?

I write to cry myself to sleep,





I write to laugh till I feel worse pain than when I began writing.

I write to be in cold darkness,

I write to be in warm sunshine.

I write to taste that sweet kiss over and over again…


Lauren Marceé Schwab


From the Barn to the Dance Floor – Texas Country Music Inspires Us to “Live It While You Got It”

Thanks to my best friend and Texas girl Brittany, I am inspired each day by the lyrics in Texas Country music. All I have to do in put my ear buds in while I’m working in the pig barn and instantly my heart is calm. I love being on the farm with the pigs, but Texas Country music transports me to a honky tonk, a small town, a red dirt country road or best of all loving life with someone who loves me.

Our imagination is a powerful tool. Albert Einstein said:


Texas Country music can uplift my spirit, brighten my day and make me dance through the barn. From heartbreak to true love, drinking in a honky tonk to spinning someone around on the dance floor, each song can tell a story or take you to a place in your wildest dreams. No matter what state you are in, even all the way to Ohio, Texas Country music can bring joy to the heart and ease a hard day’s work.

My favorites as of late are Josh Abbott Band, Randy Rogers Band, Eli Young Band, Jon Wolfe, Kyle Park, and Granger Smith. There are so many artists, but these are my go to in the barn. I am sure I will discover many more. I hope to see them all in show.


Life can have it’s hard moments, defining moments, and rewarding moments. People come and go in our lives for God’s greater plan we can’t always understand. It can be hard to let go, but when you find someone you can always lean onto in hard times, you know who will always stay. I thank Brittany for sharing Texas Country music with me, what it means to love life and to be like Texas even though I’m not from Texas!

Cheers to many more memories to be made that include Starbuck & Shiner Bock!